Tired, Sick, and Busy

It's that time of year.

You know the time.

THAT time...

From Christmas parades to birthday parties; from sick children to becoming very sick myself, it's certainly been a whirlwind of a Christmas season, which, unfortunately, caused me to neglect my blog and my writing.

It's easy to get caught up in yourself, your family, your job, shopping - or whatever else it is that you may be doing during the holidays - and neglect the things that you love. You may neglect yourself, your body (I haven't been to the gym in a month!), cleaning, or your hobbies.

I love the holidays. I love Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years. I love cooking and baking and watching everyone's face light up with amazing sweets, treats, and presents.

But, despite all of that...I also love to write. In fact, I love to write the most out of all of those things. I have had many people say to me: "Why don't you bake professionally?" And honestly, I probably could. However, my response is always the same: "It's a hobby - not a passion. Writing is my passion."

And when I don't have enough time to sit down and write even a simple blog post, a new poem in my journal, or work on a chapter in Skilled Beings - I begin to feel empty. It's like something is missing. Then, it weighs on me. And I think of it every single day.

Until I do it. Until I find a time - a quick moment to pop in and write, "Hello world, I am still here. I did not vanish."

Even now - I barely have time to write this. My kids are still up; they want ice cream. The whole month of December nearly destroyed me this year. My mind feels like it's turned to mush; as though it's the melted ice cream that will soon be sitting at the bottom of my daughter's Disney princess bowl.

Next year, I'm going to make it a point to take it easy. I'm going to go to bed early. I'm going to not stress myself out just because it's the holidays. I'm going to actually take the time to enjoy the season and, hopefully, not neglect my body, my mind, or my passion.

I sincerely hope that, whoever reads this, had a wonderful holiday season and that 2020 brings you restored energy, promise, and expectation.

Now, with all of that being said - I think my bed is calling out to me. Good night world.

Thanks for Reading,

-R.B. Lee